My oldest sister died last Thursday.
She was 71.
Her husband passed last year and they were very close.
They were amazingly close and did that whole 50 year married thing
with
a bunch of kids and grand-kids.
Shortly after her husbands passing, my sister developed a bunch of
icky stuff.
She was in a hospice ALL summer, hanging by a thread and
finally she gave up her physical body last Thursday afternoon.
It's a beautiful thing that she is now living in pure spirit.
You can imagine how trying on the family and how s_i_ty she must have
felt!
....or not, Abe says we all get to choose our own experience of our
experience. Being "old" and "useless" for some of us feels like being
royalty and being pampered...how are we to know how others flow their
energy?

Anyway, back to my sister.

I was never very close to her on the physical plane but since she
croaked and I like that Abe-term because it's offense....there is no
death, we are eternal beings : ) I have been sensing a connection to
her vibe from time to time.

My sister now lives in sheer bliss.

I believe, like we Abe-ers believe, that you can only connect with
the other side when you are in bliss.

You have to be a match to their vibe.

Now for the story about celery....finally....hahahaha:

Yesterday in Wallmart, I was feeling really good, grateful and all
that jazz
and
I happened by the produce department.
The amazing thing is I could smell the celery.
I thought to myself, "I don't ever remember smelling the celery like
this before. I was a few feet away and Woah.....this celery smells
like celery".
It was like I had never smelt celery before, it was magical.
Then I thought:
"This must be my sister smelling through my nose".
hahahahaha...I felt a little high...kinda trippy and
my eyes welled up. I was so excited and happy for the connect.
I felt the closeness....I got a tad flustered as I noticed the greens
and the reds and the orange veg-es...colors seemed more vivid, then I
lost the connection as I found myself on my ever available cell
phone, calling to connect with my husband.

ummmmmmmm.....over this past weekend, the day after we
got the news of my sister's "death", my husband and I took our
already packed and ready to go planned vacation to a resort area
and
those "high" feelings,
I allowed and although I felt from time to time "trippy and slightly
manic".....it was a WOW!
I felt safe being that high, holding my husbands hand on our weekend
away.

Sheer bliss is a vibe I dabble with and yes, on the little get-away
vacation
the day after my sisters passing, with my husband, I felt safe and I
lingered
and lavished in bliss.
I know, my sister was with me, was with us.

ummmmmmmm.....delightful!

but now we're back home and my husband went to work.
and
I went back to work.
I'm okay with a step down, feeling just gerrrrrrrr-ate.
Ha!
I live in feeling gerrrrrrrrrrrr-ate.....I liked the step up to bliss
though!
I thought I was living in bliss till I had a "whiff" of it via the
celery and other things over the past few days....hahaha
I know there will be more steps back up there and this is good.
Thanks for listening to my celery story, I just had to tell someone!
: )

Halloween 2006
What to be?
This year I not only thought the thought of what to be, I wore the costume.

Hibernating Bear

Yes!
I went from the thought of Greta Garbo, skinny, sexy, long and lanky saying:
"I vant to be alone".
to
Hibernating Bear
The inspiration came from my husband finding me tangled up in my new brown fur blanket from Kosco.
My husband snuggled with me the other morning and said;
"Oooooooooo....You feel so soft".
That was it.
In my sleepy, half awake state, the ah-ha hit me.
Brown furry, hibernating bear.
I have been on this reclusive binge since January.

I have been wanting to just not blabber and get close to anyone, this has been a driving force. I just want to be left alone.

Sleeping the winter away to awaken in the spring to once again socialize!
Ha!
Yes!

Although Haloween parites abound in my home town, this year I just wanted to get out there and go door to door.
I found two children who were more than happy to go door to door with me.

I wore a brown thick velour long sleeve, long skirted dress and big clunky
heart shaped olive sparkly earrings. My brown Swede platform shoes and brown tube socks! (Inspired by a recent Isaac show, the tube socks...hahaha)

I knew that I was a Hibernating Bear!
The main thing is I got to be my character...hahahah

We went down my block.
Half the people were not home.
Others were very generous with candy.
The two 9 year olds barely talked.
They were wearing karate suits.
Some houses had pumpkins and decorations.
One little old couple held us in conversation, too long!
One house the man was very appreciative of MY costume...hahaha
at
One house an alien stepped out side.
He was wearing a disgusting one eyed latex mask that was rippled and
frightful.
He was the only person on my block ready to "play".
The two 9 year olds stood mute with big smiles on their faces.
The man said:
"I am an alien, you look to be humaniods. Mute humaniods, what do you have to say for yourself".
Well this costumened man was taller than the 9 year olds and they just looked up at him.
He even touched one of their heads with his ugly masked head as he looked down on them.
He was getting a little too close for my comfort!
They were like frozen statues with big smiles.
I said:
"You are really scary".....
We spoke for a moment about his scary mask and I said to the two boys....
"Let's get out of here...he's scaring me"!

That was the highlight of our night (5:30 to 6PM).
Funny how scary things wake you up and give you that feeling of relief,
once you are not in them anymore!
Up and down the street where I live.
30 minutes of trick or treating.
In thirty minutes the boys stock piled ten pounds of candy!
Ha!
Laughter, participation in a tradition, seeing how others participate or not and home.
I got to be a hibernating bear, my vision for the winter.
What fun.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh all is well.