The love of my life, my son is in India.
Is he having a rough time?
No doubt!
Am I worried?
Heck no.
He knows what to do. He's been through so much in his short life. He will
be just fine. I have a knowing. He hasn't complained, he is just reporting
what is all around him, language barrier, cold water showers, no companions,
new sights, new sounds, organized chaos etc. I just emailed the following to
him in response to his 3rd day email in this new frontier on his vision quest.
I don't even know where he is in India or what his next step is...I just know
that he is overwhelmed and you know....that's okay!
Sunday morning day 3:
Shane,
We went to the Brevard County Zoo yesterday with Tim and his girlfriend.
While looking at the monkey cage I thought to myself:
These creatures are so full of life and look at their soulful eyes.
They have nothing.
They live in a wire cage with a few vines and leaves at the bottom of the cage.
They have nothing.
Nothing.
How do they find relief...don't they know they should be miserable...and yet
they looked normal and healthy and loved. One would pick the others nits...
and another mokey would hang from the top of the cage with his legs flipped
over his arms..and they would swing on the vines and chatter.
They have no books, no radios, no computer, no sewing machine, no bath tubs,
no clothes, no anything
zip, zero, nada.
I thought to myself....I couldn't stand having to amuse myself internally all day.
My god.
Then I thought of you.
You have the same.
It's like you are in a cage of sorts no access to your regular stuff.
Shane, there will be an end to your India journey.
You talk of transformation....I believe that transformation is the end of your journey.
I don't think transformation is a verb....isn't more like an adj. or an adverb?
hummmmm.....
Just like the monkeys....I see you as stark naked and with nothing.
Nothing....well, you are a lot better off then the mokeys.
You do have access to stimulation or better yet over-stimulation.
The newness and over-stimulation of your environment would be too much for me.
You sound like you are over-whelmed, yes, over-whelmed is where you are at
right now but finding
relief in your morning routine
and
and this is helping you to get organized.
Yes you are finding relief in your journey to transformation by getting organized
and finding routine.
On another note:
I feel for you, unable to communicate in words.
For me being heard is the basis of my marriage. I fell in love with Don's ear!
I have to be able to communicate my thoughts and feelings.
Thank you for the blog. I use it. It's working for me.
You will find others soon that will speak English.
You are doing just fine.
You are on the path to transformation and doing so well in finding relief here and there.
It's not easy but you know what to do.
Just a little relief...just a few routines will help you feel secure.
You're doing great.
Your tears of joy are wonderful. Keep going. Love and a big fat hug, Mom